The Gender Tourist

I understand that it's an innocent question to you; and a year ago it probably wouldn't have bothered me hardly at all since I was stealthy then; but asking "are you going to bring any actual guy clothes on our trip?" on the eve of said trip really puts a negative spin in my head. Especially so, when on each previous trip this past year you have also requested "I want at least one special day with just my man " It makes me feel like everything I am is invalid to you, and you are just humoring me but you really haven't accepted that this is more than a roleplay for me. And then there's the defense you use when I question or criticize - you immediately suggest that you'll just withdraw your participation entirely. "Just go without me" and "I just wont talk at all anymore since I cant say anything right" I feel like if your regular means of dealing with conflict in our relationship is to immediately threaten withdrawal, t...

I have been working hard and stressing harder these past few weeks; and within a week from now I will be bound for our favorite beach getaway for another 5 glorious nights! I am starting to get excited; and I plan to live it up to the fullest! Allie will be swimming every morning; playing with the puppy as much as possible and spreading the love wherever I go. Shopping with my bestie (who also happens to be my wife), Mani Pedis, and some awesome outfits are in our future. Maybe even going to visit the hair extensions booth at the local mall there and see if theres anything that will add to this girls already cute do. There's a street fair, and many events, and there is even a transgender pool party in a nearby town that I would really like to go to. I am stoked already! Happy Happy Happy!!!

So the first time I shaved my legs, I got a pleasant surprise, which I will tell you about in a minute. But first, I want to relate that the experience was a milestone type of awakening for me. I did it in the shower, and used one of the commonly available specially designed razors for sensitive skin. I also forgoed using shaving cream; instead using a good lather of body wash which I use daily. Its nicely scented, has moisturizers and a little bit of some special essential oil I think for the skin. It worked out fabulously; I took long strokes from the top of my foot up to my knee, working around each leg, and rinsing the razor under the showerhead often. Then carefully up over the knee, and the back of the knee all around again, and finally I did the same to my thighs, the backs, above the knee, you know... What I learned doing this deliberate act, was a sense of self- love because I was doing something for Allie, specifically, that I would not have done otherwise. Each de...