Thoughts on GRS now that I've had it
I wish I could say that this was a happy celebratory post. The truth is that I am so beside myself that if i had the decision all over again, I would choose NOT to proceed with GRS. Let's start with the 3rd day in the hospital. (Yes the surgery itself went well, and I woke up in good spirits. It was momentarily amazing to realize I no longer had a penis and in its place was a new vagina) I was very blase' emotionally. I was beginning to wonder if I would have any happy feelings to be honest. I had expected joy and instead I felt very ambivalent. Towards the end of that day I found out that my partner had contracted COVID while there in west hollywood. I could not go home. I had not in my wildest dreams imagine that the entire support system I had put in place to assist me during recovery, would evaporate before my release. I was devastated. AND also finally the feelings came. I had not planned on how the absence of Testosterone would impact my emotional state. I cried about a ...