The end of a dream

Sitting here with hot tear streaked cheeks and neck. I'm afraid.

My partner is out on a date, and it's OK because we're poly. It's part of the deal. 

Communication has taken place, I know who she's with, and I'm actually excited for her. 

So why do I have this wrenching pain inside like my life is about to change in a way that leaves me even less ... what?

The overbearing thought in my mind is that She can give my partner what I can't

And because of that I'm afraid that I wont be valuable anymore