Surfing the big feels
There's a popular GIF that I see often, showing a blank anguished face awash in the sea being overrun by waves... And the caption is "feels" I've used this one meany times in the few years I have been transitioning; and TBH I thought I was pretty familiar with the concept. I thought I had a handle on the emotions that naturally come with HRT and ultimately accessing the full range of my emotional response capacity. I was wrong. The metaphor is an apt one though, we paddle about in our shore break of emotion, never really knowing the immensity of what could be in store for us in the form of a rogue wave, or living during the only pandemic in one's lifetime, ... or, I don't know ... perhaps instead its more like this: (Cut to) "There is a place within a long day's travel of my home - called the Cortes Bank. It is fairly regarded as producing the largest waves ever reliably seen, and yes ACTUALLY SURFED by man, on this planet.&qu