Allie v.1.0
So when did named Allie come to be, and how?
Somewhat surprisingly, during a couple of group discussions, I have learned that the choosing of a trans name in today's world is nearly a universal construct of the necessity of having an online identity. OK; I suspect that's probably an inaccurate and broad over-generalization. There are of course exceptions, but in my microcosm of trans friends and acquaintances, around 8 or 9 out of 10 group members agreed that they first chose a name in order to have an online identity; so that they could go on to interact with others in a social media or other electronic communication context.
Allie was no exception. And so, my second 'coming out' experience was digital, and was intended to provide access to, and make me more accessible to others with similar challenges, needs and interests.
Somewhere around 2010 (rough estimating because I'm actually too lazy to log on and check the exact date) Allie 1.0 was created in its first iteration as AlliCheri - an avatar (for an online fetish community) because frankly in a Google search that's the first place that came up where I could find organized groups of other people going through similar struggles. As it turned out, that website - although not without value - did not serve to provide me with enough realistic information, advice, and positive interaction unrelated to sexuality (go figure).
What it did do for me, even though it was through the filter of a stereotypical underbelly of social sites, was punctuate the fact the I was not alone in my aspirations and thoughts and feelings.
I joined too many 'crossdresser' this and 'crossdresser' that sites; along with some others that piqued my prurient interests (hey I'm only human right?) and shared WAY too much in the form of written fantastical ideas and thoughts and so on. Trust me, somewhere in its PRISM database, the NSA knows exactly how to make this one squeal I'm sure.
For a couple years I learned the stereotypical side of being Trans. That is to say the side presented in most TV and Movie drama as the norm, up until this decade. (Being trans means you're either a sex worker, a drag queen, or simply chasing after your wildest sexual fantasies through some sort of play acting at being female)
Then after tiring of the incessant objectification, I decided to seek out real people like myself who were interested in serious discussion send introspection. Shortly thereafter in 2016, Allie Rae came to be, in a 12 x 20 room; a designated safe space - among a small solar system of friends and allies.
**Note - I believe I can improve upon the last few paragraphs and will probably edit in the future; they only partially convey what I really wanted to say and what my experience was. But they serve for now, as I was nearly exhausted when I wrote them and I think its more important to keep moving forward for now.**
Somewhat surprisingly, during a couple of group discussions, I have learned that the choosing of a trans name in today's world is nearly a universal construct of the necessity of having an online identity. OK; I suspect that's probably an inaccurate and broad over-generalization. There are of course exceptions, but in my microcosm of trans friends and acquaintances, around 8 or 9 out of 10 group members agreed that they first chose a name in order to have an online identity; so that they could go on to interact with others in a social media or other electronic communication context.
Allie was no exception. And so, my second 'coming out' experience was digital, and was intended to provide access to, and make me more accessible to others with similar challenges, needs and interests.
Somewhere around 2010 (rough estimating because I'm actually too lazy to log on and check the exact date) Allie 1.0 was created in its first iteration as AlliCheri - an avatar (for an online fetish community) because frankly in a Google search that's the first place that came up where I could find organized groups of other people going through similar struggles. As it turned out, that website - although not without value - did not serve to provide me with enough realistic information, advice, and positive interaction unrelated to sexuality (go figure).
What it did do for me, even though it was through the filter of a stereotypical underbelly of social sites, was punctuate the fact the I was not alone in my aspirations and thoughts and feelings.
I joined too many 'crossdresser' this and 'crossdresser' that sites; along with some others that piqued my prurient interests (hey I'm only human right?) and shared WAY too much in the form of written fantastical ideas and thoughts and so on. Trust me, somewhere in its PRISM database, the NSA knows exactly how to make this one squeal I'm sure.
For a couple years I learned the stereotypical side of being Trans. That is to say the side presented in most TV and Movie drama as the norm, up until this decade. (Being trans means you're either a sex worker, a drag queen, or simply chasing after your wildest sexual fantasies through some sort of play acting at being female)
Then after tiring of the incessant objectification, I decided to seek out real people like myself who were interested in serious discussion send introspection. Shortly thereafter in 2016, Allie Rae came to be, in a 12 x 20 room; a designated safe space - among a small solar system of friends and allies.
**Note - I believe I can improve upon the last few paragraphs and will probably edit in the future; they only partially convey what I really wanted to say and what my experience was. But they serve for now, as I was nearly exhausted when I wrote them and I think its more important to keep moving forward for now.**
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